07/08/2025:
Sometimes i think i complicate my life for no reason, like i don't have impactful problems so i created them for myself. Choosing shouldn't be hard; Loving shouldn't be hard; Accepting shouldn't be hard; but i make all be it. I try to be my own critic, my own friend, all with the intention of being the best person I can be, but in the end, I become my own enemy. I know this text sounds cheesy, because that's how my mind usually works - It's extreme and non-sensical - Like there is no middle or gray area, or that the middle only exists after the extremes collide.
07/09/2025:
I'm better (for) now, thanks to therapy! Anyway, i'm writing some notes for my story, which i call "Water Under The Levee" and it's about a guy who is very arrogant and dumb in the early 2000s, then he makes a bad decision and somehow he gets frozen and then unfrozen 25 years later, and he has to be a better person or something. I'm really bad at telling my stories without giving spoilers. So, yeah it's essentially an idea i had past year but now it's much better because the protagonist is three-dimensional and not just a horny bitch (nothing against horny bitches, I love you all, but the man had no personality beyond that). The guy is american and is intentional, cause this story is also about how i've be feeling about that country in the last years. BTW, the moldy orange wants to tariff us in 50%, not only that, but this shithead is also trying to influence our politics?? Saying stupid shit like "leave bolsonaro alone!!" as if this fascist loser was Britney Spears, ah me poupe!
07/14/2025:
I'll have to rewrite site's code and organize everything, but don't worry, I'll test it with the Brackets software before updating.
07/20/2025:
Why do I prefer to write male characters? Like, I was trying to rewrite one of my projects and make the main character a girl, but I didn't feel comfortable doing it. Call me a "self-hating woman" or something, but this particular story makes more sense with a male character than a female one, because of some themes involving masculinity and boys being forced to be toxic like a curse, among other things. By the way, I've never said this here, but this character was essentially my male self-insert created at a very complicated episode in my life. I used to identify as a guy back then because I felt safer imagining myself in a body that wasn't my own, but after a lot of therapy, I realized I wasn't exactly a trans man; what I had were a lot of unresolved traumas involving the female body as a whole (including my attraction to women) and how, from a very young age, I was exposed to objectifying media and opinions that destroyed me. This was my experience, i'm not trying to "prove" anything here, what happened to my life only says about me and no one else. I love trans men and i want the best for you all.